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13 September 2009 @ 09:38 pm
I went rowing with two of my secondary 4 classmates, friends whom i weren't close with..much less talked to. But we had a great time, chatting and simply walking alot!
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What's going to keep me busy for the next two weeks/ more;
Math Assignment
IBM Assignment
Ideas generation for Muay Thai Booth design
Product Catalogue
Revisions
(incorporating sports in my daily life!)
I can conquer all things!
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I realised that sometimes you would want to lead lives of others, you envy them, you wished you were them- because they are so much better than you. All the more you should strive to lead better lives that others would be envious of you, no? Marius mentioned to me, that one cannot never win everybody. Melvin also mentioned that, winning isn't everything. There are so many people around me that God has sent to tell me..that success is not about winning. Character is the key. And i learn as i go, be humble yet confident and have the heart to learn from anyone around you.
Ask me why I always type such entries? I don't know why?!
09 September 2009 @ 11:43 pm
Things are picking up...then again, sometimes it just goes down. It's a vicious cycle.
Some things that are finally looking up, i'm not sure if it's good now. We're on talking terms, in fact- i believe we're even going to train together in Muay Thai, after chatting during dinner today. Okay, I invited her in a way to join us for training. The competitive edge in me comes out too readily and wants to strive for better things. And sometimes, i just hate this streak of mine because i demand too much for myself, and then you know what happens when things don't go my way.
If i could change my FB status every 1 min, this would be how it will look like- just to illustrate what's going through my mind now. Since Ming has been asking me too many times why I've been staring into space, during the entire journey home.
Michelle Lee (wonders if she's ready next year, if it means to train doubly, triply hard.)
Michelle Lee (is always thinking about the worst outcome.)
Michelle Lee (thinks Forever will never materialize.)
Michelle Lee (wonders if the 长长九九 dinner and flyer ride at 9.45pm will change things.)
Michelle Lee (has an urge to go for a run now.)
Okay, i know what you're thinking..like what?! Of course, I won't ever have the guts to post this up as my status. I recall just the other day when I changed to (wants to feel single), I've got people commenting and pm-ing me asking if i'm fine. Definitely.........not. But how do i answer them? I seriously need to get back my contacts, because some of you might have realised I've been changing my status too often..I need to talk and msg people privately instead.
And, I need a mentor- might find sometime to talk to Melvin soon, am not sure who else I can look for to talk to. Things beyond me, myself.
Are you ready to ride on this crazy journey with me?
Some things that are finally looking up, i'm not sure if it's good now. We're on talking terms, in fact- i believe we're even going to train together in Muay Thai, after chatting during dinner today. Okay, I invited her in a way to join us for training. The competitive edge in me comes out too readily and wants to strive for better things. And sometimes, i just hate this streak of mine because i demand too much for myself, and then you know what happens when things don't go my way.
If i could change my FB status every 1 min, this would be how it will look like- just to illustrate what's going through my mind now. Since Ming has been asking me too many times why I've been staring into space, during the entire journey home.
Michelle Lee (wonders if she's ready next year, if it means to train doubly, triply hard.)
Michelle Lee (is always thinking about the worst outcome.)
Michelle Lee (thinks Forever will never materialize.)
Michelle Lee (wonders if the 长长九九 dinner and flyer ride at 9.45pm will change things.)
Michelle Lee (has an urge to go for a run now.)
Okay, i know what you're thinking..like what?! Of course, I won't ever have the guts to post this up as my status. I recall just the other day when I changed to (wants to feel single), I've got people commenting and pm-ing me asking if i'm fine. Definitely.........not. But how do i answer them? I seriously need to get back my contacts, because some of you might have realised I've been changing my status too often..I need to talk and msg people privately instead.
And, I need a mentor- might find sometime to talk to Melvin soon, am not sure who else I can look for to talk to. Things beyond me, myself.
Are you ready to ride on this crazy journey with me?
07 September 2009 @ 11:19 am
thanks to scrapblog.com
With the people at Lifeskills and Ming!
Note to self: Never wear
This run was a cold and long run even though it was only 10km. Didn't set out to achieve any PB, but my purpose of this run was to finish it with the Lifeskills facilitators. And...we did it! We did it with prep runs at Macritchie, those who train at MR would know that this run at Changi Prison was so different. Many up and downslopes (in fact a total of 9), which represents the ups and downs of those who served their term in the prison.
This is just a small group of us, hopefully we'll get more facilitators and trainers to join us in future when we have such runs again.
23 August 2009 @ 10:04 pm
21 August 2009 @ 10:18 am
To describe how i feel now.. ): ): ): ):
So..
I've lost my E71, my 6months old phone..poor thing. It has endured several drops and knocks and what nots..now it's missing.
I'm really damn careless, easily distracted thus the loss of my phone. ):
Meanwhile, just less than a week into my hair cut and i'm missing my long hair. :/
Hope it'll grow longer soon.........
I'm off for a camp this weekend. Yesterday during training, after some few shin kicks and defence, my legs are badly bruised. Still aiming to do better though.
So..
I've lost my E71, my 6months old phone..poor thing. It has endured several drops and knocks and what nots..now it's missing.
I'm really damn careless, easily distracted thus the loss of my phone. ):
Meanwhile, just less than a week into my hair cut and i'm missing my long hair. :/
Hope it'll grow longer soon.........
I'm off for a camp this weekend. Yesterday during training, after some few shin kicks and defence, my legs are badly bruised. Still aiming to do better though.
18 August 2009 @ 09:15 pm
Here I am, once again...promise this will be the last post on haircut. I really have not much hair left to chop.
You know, things don't always go the way you want. As much as i yearned for the cut in the last post (2nd picture), it did not turn out that way.
Instead it became like this.
Now you understand why this is the last post? I think it'll take at least 2 months for my hair to grow out..now no one can force me to do any sort of rebonding / perming....
In any case, do i resemble Stella Huang- the girl who acted several shows in the good ol' Mediacorp days?
You know, things don't always go the way you want. As much as i yearned for the cut in the last post (2nd picture), it did not turn out that way.
Instead it became like this.
Now you understand why this is the last post? I think it'll take at least 2 months for my hair to grow out..now no one can force me to do any sort of rebonding / perming....
In any case, do i resemble Stella Huang- the girl who acted several shows in the good ol' Mediacorp days?
17 August 2009 @ 11:20 pm
I have chopped off inches.
And will be chopping off alittle more tomorrow.
Today's episode of bad hair was written all over my face.
Please tell me that the 2nd picture looks better, cos i can only cut short, i can't make my hair grow longer overnight!
And will be chopping off alittle more tomorrow.
Today's episode of bad hair was written all over my face.
Please tell me that the 2nd picture looks better, cos i can only cut short, i can't make my hair grow longer overnight!
03 August 2009 @ 03:01 pm
I remember those days in PL, we'll always sing this song..be it morning devotion or chapels.
My eyes will always get alittle wet..now, as I hum along with this song, memories of PL came back..
I thank Him for the many good years before and ahead..
26 July 2009 @ 09:58 pm
Today my 2nd sister shocked me with "I will do better than you!" in a challenging tone.
Who am i to lecture her? Moreover, when i was younger, family definitely wasn't my first priority...people will grow up, my sisters will.
I have no qualms about her doing better than me, i'm just hoping that she means what she says.
And I had a brief conversation with her about putting family first in whatever she does, and she said a firm no.Who am i to lecture her? Moreover, when i was younger, family definitely wasn't my first priority...people will grow up, my sisters will.
22 July 2009 @ 02:10 pm
16 July 2009 @ 12:34 pm
Don't you agree that friendships are hard to keep once it starts growing?
I find it hard to catch up with them, especially since I'm beginning to grow my circle of friends- it's inevitable, but the problem is i don't want to neglect/ lose them.
And..we can't stop at just one circle, because everyone's growing them slowly and steadily, daily.
I find it hard to catch up with them, especially since I'm beginning to grow my circle of friends- it's inevitable, but the problem is i don't want to neglect/ lose them.
And..we can't stop at just one circle, because everyone's growing them slowly and steadily, daily.
What are your thoughts?
08 July 2009 @ 09:09 pm
Leaving for Bangkok, 6 days with Ming and his friends..but i'm not feeling all excited or happy. Maybe it's because when i'm back, things would be different. Let's just hope that the shopping over there will cheer me up.
I'm happy to have my dad and mom who loves me so much, they're worried that i'll be away for so long away from home, because i'm usually away for 3days max even though i'm overseas. And even though i wanted to pay for this trip on my own, they each separately gave me money to spend cos they're also worried that i might not have enough.
Although it may be a painful decision to the both of us, i just hope he understands my intentions.
And somehow i know that when i'm back, i still have my parents and sisters' shoulders to cry on when i need one. I'm sure the first few days would be a torture but things would turn out fine after awhile.
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I missed my freshmen orientation day cos I had work that day, and i heard that the queue for the camp was so long, they had to randomly choose 200 people to attend. That's it, my hopes of joining into the council is gone!
I'm happy to have my dad and mom who loves me so much, they're worried that i'll be away for so long away from home, because i'm usually away for 3days max even though i'm overseas. And even though i wanted to pay for this trip on my own, they each separately gave me money to spend cos they're also worried that i might not have enough.
Although it may be a painful decision to the both of us, i just hope he understands my intentions.
And somehow i know that when i'm back, i still have my parents and sisters' shoulders to cry on when i need one. I'm sure the first few days would be a torture but things would turn out fine after awhile.
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I missed my freshmen orientation day cos I had work that day, and i heard that the queue for the camp was so long, they had to randomly choose 200 people to attend. That's it, my hopes of joining into the council is gone!
05 July 2009 @ 08:48 am
Gone were the days when we were certain that we will definitely end up as life partners and even see a future with each other.
But does it mean that if we don't picture that an end in mind, we will break up one day? I'm really not sure.
So many things have surfaced for the past few months and i foresee more to come as we enter school together...funny, isn't it? Funny how we assume that things will only get better because we'll be much more closer than we already are.
And..just as i thought and assumed once again, that things between me and his sister were fine- it surely isn't.
Why do i keep assuming things? Making an Ass out of u and me.
This coming September the 23rd is our 3 years together. And we're going Bangkok with his friends next week...i initially wanted to break this news to him after the trip- but i'm not sure if i can bring myself to it. I'm not prepared mentally and have been pushing this decision back. I cannot imagine what will happen after it..i have not experienced a relationship so long and definitely do not want to experience the breakup of a relationship, i deem long.
However, I began to have more faith, spiritually- beginning to find an inner call for something i cannot explain. Somehow, I felt that this God is around. And it's really not just a temporal or 3-min reflection. It is happening..
I don't know what will become of us, but i hope things don't turn out ugly as usual.
This is so embarrassing....
But does it mean that if we don't picture that an end in mind, we will break up one day? I'm really not sure.
So many things have surfaced for the past few months and i foresee more to come as we enter school together...funny, isn't it? Funny how we assume that things will only get better because we'll be much more closer than we already are.
And..just as i thought and assumed once again, that things between me and his sister were fine- it surely isn't.
Why do i keep assuming things? Making an Ass out of u and me.
This coming September the 23rd is our 3 years together. And we're going Bangkok with his friends next week...i initially wanted to break this news to him after the trip- but i'm not sure if i can bring myself to it. I'm not prepared mentally and have been pushing this decision back. I cannot imagine what will happen after it..i have not experienced a relationship so long and definitely do not want to experience the breakup of a relationship, i deem long.
However, I began to have more faith, spiritually- beginning to find an inner call for something i cannot explain. Somehow, I felt that this God is around. And it's really not just a temporal or 3-min reflection. It is happening..
I don't know what will become of us, but i hope things don't turn out ugly as usual.
This is so embarrassing....
25 June 2009 @ 02:55 pm
Must get back to running and need to run more to clock distance!
I don't want to pung-chek halfway during my 21km, so thankfully, my neighbour and I have decided to jog at night in our estate!
17 June 2009 @ 01:38 pm
Melvin didn't pass the DISC training to me during the VJ Camp. Luckily. For I know I wasn't ready, enough.
And to all the facilitators and Melvin, thanks for making this an enjoyable one!
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Off to pack my room! These days, one thing's been running thru my mind, two words: Role Model. A talk with Mom over lunch also reiterates my point of being a role model to those that i'm teaching, most importantly my two sisters. If you tell others not to do something that they shouldn't, all the more, you should not be doing that exact thing. This includes small little things like jaywalking etc.
I'm building up...slowly.
It was a whole load of fun, being with the kids- somehow making me feel older than I already am! :/
Here are some pictures to document the camp:And to all the facilitators and Melvin, thanks for making this an enjoyable one!
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Off to pack my room! These days, one thing's been running thru my mind, two words: Role Model. A talk with Mom over lunch also reiterates my point of being a role model to those that i'm teaching, most importantly my two sisters. If you tell others not to do something that they shouldn't, all the more, you should not be doing that exact thing. This includes small little things like jaywalking etc.
I'm building up...slowly.
09 June 2009 @ 01:53 am
Tomorrow, or rather today, is my make or break day- that is if Melvin decides to hand over the entire training of DISC to me..a total of 120 odd students and teachers.
I had initially wanted to sleep at 10pm, but received a msg from Melvin saying that he's down with a bad throat and running nose, therefore i might require to handle his training.
If you're reading this, pray for me can? Not that i intentionally want to avoid doing the session but i'm not confident of myself. I can remember my facts and all, but once you handle me infront of a crowd to talk and engage their interest, i'm afraid i might stammer and even forget what i actually recalled.
Bless me, I know i can do this! (if i really have to do it tomorrow)
Off for another camp!
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I had initially wanted to sleep at 10pm, but received a msg from Melvin saying that he's down with a bad throat and running nose, therefore i might require to handle his training.
If you're reading this, pray for me can? Not that i intentionally want to avoid doing the session but i'm not confident of myself. I can remember my facts and all, but once you handle me infront of a crowd to talk and engage their interest, i'm afraid i might stammer and even forget what i actually recalled.
Bless me, I know i can do this! (if i really have to do it tomorrow)
Off for another camp!
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A pointer for myself to remember, in the event anything goes wrong:
“Failure is simply the opportunity to begin again, this time more intelligently.” – Henry Ford
Successful people don’t believe in failure. They only believe in feedback. To them, failure is simply life’s way of telling you that you’re not doing things quite correctly, so go do it again. Real failure occurs only when you give up.